Monday, February 21, 2005

RH came to visit and stayed over on Wednesday.

R gave me a knowing look when i emerged.

the party on thursday? safe to say it was a mess- vodka jelly was in demand, and the supplier i.e. moi, couldnt keep up with the orders. partly because i was drunk, partly because i was drinking all the vodka jelly, or at least trying to, and paryly because there simply weas not enbough to go around.

still, i managed to find some smeared on the door....

everyone was quite thoroughly wasted, balloons popped, no sick people however.

JB was also there. spent a suprising amount of time taking to me thsat night...... also found it amusing to lock me in the cupbourd....

...and i thinik R was drunk??!!

three of A's friends from her class were there. all male. were going to all go to a club, but they wanted to go early, i didnt. insisted on waiting for A.

however they managed to coax a drunken me out of the door. and i was stuck with them for alot of the night. had it in my head that if i ran they wouldn't follow. wrong. i spent the best part of thet night running, and the rest being grabbed by one of them and being swung around him with his arm around my waist.......

he insisted on rubbing me up and down because i was cold......... i was drunk for fuck sake, i never feel cold.......

all in all a fabulous night, went home with B, who took my hand and guided me out. we linked arms all the way home, some random guy slid up next to me and slipped his arm into mine. excuse me do i know you?

apparently, i didnt. was faar too drunk however and was rescued by B who insisted that i was going home with her.

Subject of RH. Ch has warned him to 'be nice' to moi. he stayed over on Wednesday, more confessions came out......

he apparently 'stole a picture of you from Ch's room' and had promised that he would never tell me.
his mother has her suspicions, always has. told him that he was a 'disgrace' for being with GG (his now ex), but liking me the whole time....

anyway, under the covers on wed night, and i was soooo horny.. we did fuck, mabey eleven times or so. however.....

we were started, fucking and all, and then we would go to change positions or something, and....well....let's just say the titanic struggled to stay afloat.....

i thought it was me, beut according to him, it was me, but it wasnt me. i didn't quite understand what he meant....

for what i got though, it was good. He told me that i tasted nicer than anyone, really spent alot of time there, licking his fingers afterwards of just going down.

talkng about why have anal sex. i think he said he had, but people do it because its tighter than normal sex. he doesnt have to try and have anal with me, really tight already according to him.....

FREE CONDOMS. bombarded with them trying to make my way here, they had a hunge poster up....

"what did you get for valentines day?.......

A GREENISH-YELLOW DISCHARGE"

must say, it was quite good......i took some, i know they'll come in useful later....

its RH's week off this week. so he may be up.....confided in s10 about the little 'problem', and he explained it all to me, how because he has been waiting for this for so long, be gets embaressed and is afraid that he will fuck up, and so also puts himself under pressure. and because he is so convinced that something will go wrong, he becomes again embaresssed, and like i say.....sank.....

im sure it will be much better next time, but if anyone has any advice.....send it this way!

Ch may be moving into her house today....she has a scan of the baby.....blah.....i really want to see RH again, very horny......

last time i saw him, i was getting very worked up, but he turned to me:

"angel, this is more than just fucking for me"

didnt know what to say......

he tells me im beautiful, perfect, amazing. and i dont know what to say back, its a little heavy since weve only just got together, its like i want to see him, but i dont because of the things he says....

ah well, ill with cold........ try to be better.

comments? thank you. advice? muchas gracias!

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 1:27 PM

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More David B

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

More David B (hopefully!)

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 2:26 PM

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there has been far too much developmet in the recent days to even contemplate trying to sum it up here.

but i will tell of the most framatic development.

CH. ive been in contact with her brother RH for quite a few months. nothing heavy, much more along the lines of idol chit chat.

sunday the 13th. he wanted to see me.
he had previously let it slip that he was now single. thought nothing of it, i had known him a year and nothing had come out of it, so there was no reason to think anything, despite how much i wanted to.

we met up and had some drinks.
after a much entertaining night, i had to go home as i had quite obiously missed the last train.

as it happened staying with mother dearest did not go to plan. so RH's great idea was to "sleep in the maids room"

his house is huge. having nine children in the family it would be. so big is the house, that it stil has a maids room. a tiny little room right at the top of a set of steep stairs.

he rang the doorbell and i hid. his mum opened the door to let him in, but he stayed outside, telling her he had to finish his smoke. 4 cigs later she was still bouncing through the hallway, obiously curious as to why he was still outside.

she went upstairs and he pulled me through the door with him up to the maids room.

we lay down on the blankets and the space that we had. i shook with cold and the alcohol leaving my body. he put his arm around me and laughed, turned me towards the wall and puled me closer to him.

we talked for a while, turned to face him, eyes heavy with sleep i didnt notice how close he was to me, untill i looked and he was staring right at me.

and then he kissed me. slow at first, like he expected he to push him off and he was just testing the water, but more and more and more.

and then it came out.

he had liked me for over a year, the fights with his ex were to give me a chance to intervene. he denied it to everyone. spoke to me about how he hated me staying with his sister,ch, couldnt stand it.

i told him how id liked him, told ch, told a few people about it, but would never dare say because of her

he ran his hands all over. muttering how beautiful he thought i was. he pulled off my jeans and underwear. laughing as he felt something

"whats that?"

it was a cross on the front of it, made of little diamonds.

removed my top, and i his. for a long hime he explored everything, almost in disbelief, but like he didnt want to damage what he touched, never pushing too far, always comming back to kiss me.

he ran his hand down my stomach, and gently put his finger in. and another. and another.he wasnt harsh, very gentle. too gentle.i started to demand to him what to do. he followed my every dictation.

he went under the covers. i felt his breath on me. and then his toungue, massaging my clit, he knew what to do. i wanted to shout out, moreso when he put his toungue inside. and out again, back to work, he was building pace.

i pulled him towards me and he kissed me deeply. i could taste myself on him.

i lay him down and removed his trousers. almost frightened by how well equipped he was. i kissed it up and down, put it in my mouth. staring slow, and going faster, slowing again and going over the tip with my toungue, speeding up again.

i heard him moan, push me further down.

"don't stop"

i thought i heard stop. and pulled away. he pulled me towards him and kissed me some more.

i was on top of him. we imitated fucking, his dick rubbing me, i was going insane.

having nothing with me didnt seem to bother me. and gently he pushed his dick in.

it hurt. stretching me. it didnt help that it had been five months or so since i last had sex, and my boyfriend was about three inches and had absolutley no idea how to use it.

i started slow. going ever faster. i had to let go. i so wanted to. but it was not the place. i had to calm down. we switched and he lay on top of me.

he slowed down. being easy and gentle. i calmed too. my breathing slowed, and for ten minuites, it was nice.

i pushed him off. realised that we shouldnt. he smiled down at me and his alarm for work rang.

he lay me down, stroking my head and kissing me, telling me he thought i was 99% perfect, he liked everything about me.

"theres nothing classicaly beautiful about you...........but theres someting strikingly stunning"

what he meant i don't know. didn't ask.
i slept happy.

woke up to CH staring in my face

"oh my god"

Me:(laughing) sorry

CH:what happened?

Me:stuff

CH:like?

Me:well i cant tell you

ch:he came up and was like 'hi how are you? how do you feel?' and then he told me 'someone' was downstairts that i had to see. he made me guess, then he said it was you! i sat right up. i guessed something happened and asked him if he was going out with you. i think he said yes. but your my responsibility now.

Me: okayyyyyy...... so how the fuck do i get out? the window?!

Ch:(laughing) i dunno, but there not at school today. RH must have forgotten

oh holy shit

Me:FUCK!!!

Ch:haha, i know.

she went downstairs to try and remove her many family members from the room. i became more and more awake. at one point she was arguing with her mum about a couch or something which had to be collected.

she shouted

"oh my god!!!!!! what am i meant to do?! carry it on my back or something??!!!"

i almost died of laughter. almost got caught. the thought of what would happen to me kept me quiet.

she had to tell her brother simon, and he was like "what??!!

he likes me, ish. used to come into CH's room when i was there and try and soak us for fun.

whether he stayes quiet or not i dont know....

after about an hour and a half in the room, and after seriously contemplating going out the window, Ch came in and told me to run down. i did, however at that point her mum came to see her. was two feet away from me.

she demanded "what going on?! youve been in here six times already!"

two more seconds and she would have turned aorund and i would have been finished, Ch grabbed me and swung me out the door, and we both ran full speed towards the front door, bursting through as she called "goodbye"

almost choked with laughter outside.

unfortunatley i did have to spend the rest of the day commando as i dressed in haste, but unable to find my underwear. did get it back though..........Happy Valentines Day

he called me last night for three hours., then text "goodnight beautiful" just before i fell asleep....

Ch is pregnant. definatley. saw her bump. shes moving in with her bf sometime this week. caught up with so much stuff that we hadnt told each other. God ive missed her so much.

will be seeing more of her when im back..

came home to a little box of chocolates and a lollipop, both heart shaped, from B next door. so cute.

s10 came down for like an hour to talk. told everyone in the flat, and a few other people. s10 is happy for me. as he was about to leave, he turned to me

"you know what 'angel'? im really glad to have you back. really missed you"

it was soo nice. hugged and told him i would speak to him later.

Amy from block 5 has been in touch. wants me to come around more often.

J's sister is staying over. this is the girl who gives blow-bobs in the street-long story- but J's theroy is that she isnt quite as mad as me, so i cant judge!

Party tomorrow night. then out. A's 18th birthday. thinking ill make her some vodka jelly?! she's sure to appreciate it. i really don't know who she wants there. she came in:

"'angel' you had BETTER NOT BE WORKING ON MY BIRTHDAY!"

good thing im not..........

anyway, faarrrr too much written. and RH is comming over today. to finish what we started?.......... xXx

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 1:20 PM

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Tuesday, February 08, 2005

just some more........

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 9:45 PM

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David Boreanaz

seriously though, it's been too long.

Friday night. having nothing particular to do, called on s10. spoke to him about C next door, who he has had the biggest crush on for months. in the flat was H9, andi, ed and ewan, oh, and G9, the adultery boy. all were drinking and were going out.

H9 and ewan however decided later that they would stay, as they wanted to get intoxicated with me.

we had a fucking riot.

armed with much alcohol and sitting in a flat whos owners were absent became too much for Ewan and myself, and with no one to stop us we let loose around the house.

the kitchen. we filled various 'beer' bottles with salt, water and other components to make it resemble beer, put a lid on it and stuck it in the fridge.

placed post its all over the flat:

*bathroom1-the wanking cupbourd
*bathroom 2-the slasher
*ed's room- the drinking machine
*JB's room-the cool one
*andi's room-the randy scot
*s10's room-the sex god aka sex machine
*front door-the hardcore porn filming studio

empty beer bottles re-housed to his top drawer
the cherry drops became washing-up-powder coated
his boxers pinned to the wall
his calender defaced with various 'events', among them, "choking the chicken for the first time"
filled a condom with milk and water, hung it on his door.

when he returned and found all the items, we couldnt move for laughing. the condom disgusted him, and so we told him it was H9 who had masturbated, and later taped it to the inside of the intercom handset......

ewan later dragged me off to a party, and at one point i lost all the alcohol, but he found it-telling me i had left it in the washing machine.

was quite good. met a really lovely girl, that however was one, but the rest......

whore bitches. in the worst sense of the word. ewan introduced me, but every single one of them just looked me up and down. i was not impressed. and they knew it.

apparently i kept shouting and wanting to fight with all of them. ewan kept me calm, well ish,. and told me that me and the girls from my block were way hotter than them, and thats why they were glaring at me.....

spent alot of time speaking to H9, about JB.
couldnt get much out of him because he was drunk, as was i, but he did say that
*JB is shy, and has low self esteem.
*he thinks i can do better than JB

later on, he came in and said "yeah, um they all dont think i can pull you" and moved in close. i laughed and backed off, and told him to do the little 'kiss' where you lock your hands together and suck your thumb, so it looks like your kissing them, but you arent.

didnt hang around to see if they believed me or not. ran out. um think i called loads of friends from home.......

went out later to meet A and some others from my block. they all left, except me and A, as well as a few of her friends from home.

had a passing out episode on the pool table, woke up and engaged in a conversation on how to find one's g-spot. or more correctly, how do men find it. A and i confessed there and then that we had never experianced the pleasure of an earth shattering orgasm, and A declaring this right in front of her ex's best friend......

we smoked and drank. alot. A and myself swapping between the smoke and the shared drink.

told A about the flat problem, and how i may have to find somewhere on my own.

"oh my god no. you cant go! youre, your my 'angel', i cant imagine living without you!!"

i am aware she does want to live with me, but it is the girls next door imposing which is making me hesitate to ask....

the bouncers in the union were eyeing us alot. i noticed. and A did too.

later when we got home, we continued the discussion about g-spots.
A:yeah but do you not think that you can do it better yourself?

Me: haha, so much better, none of them even knew where to begin to look!
A: well, i have to do it myself all the time

Me;yeah me too

later on while making tea before going to bed, she turned round to me, and said exactly the same words CH had said to me before:

"'angel', in gagging for it!!"

its great. somehow all my friends are able to tell me how horny they are, without feeling uncomfortable.
honestly, i have to get sex soon, i dont even want to think about what might happen if i dont...
but i will be firm, and the ex(s) will not cross my mind......

went to the edinburgh dungeons on saturday. it was really good. me and J, her boyfriend, R,A,and Kieran.
had alot of fun, some of the torture equipment made me slightly sickish.....

and s10 told c. last night. she didnt say naything. they spoke some more, and he left. okay, i dont think shes hott, but s10 lies her. anyway, was pissed at the fact that she didnt even reject him, all she did was say 'aww, you're so sweet'.

ffs woman, tell him straight. personally i think she wants the attention, s10 is a good friend, and i just dont want him messed around.....

went to see nic last night for a little gathering thingy.

the house was soo pretty! and it was a proper house, with a living room and everything, very unlike my habitat.......

there were hott boys, like really. one did smile at me alot, but there was another, from inverness, stunn-ing. he looked like my total sex god, David Boreanaz, but hotter. http://www.menwallpaper.de/zgallery/8_Celebrities/A_-_E/Boreanaz_David/David_Boreanaz.jpg

R and i shared our old scrapbooks. it was really good, we got kind of closer than before, and then she made loads of pancakes!

okay. i have more to write, but the library will close. later

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 8:26 PM

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Friday, February 04, 2005

fuck. again i have let myself be seduced by the dirty little nicotine stick.
Speaking about the flat business again. No one is exactly sure what they are doing. A doesnt know who she wants to live with.

oh, fuck me, i saw JB this morning. Was outside, smoking away, when he came out. he did speak to me, but it was only to scold me for my filthy little habbit.

J's room ceiling is being painted. Apparently it needs done, however, the whole day all i heard was talk of how absolutley stunning the painter is reported to be. well, must be back in time for the event.....

met s10 too. apparently, little Ben is not feeling welcome here at ENP, and he would like me to go down there and talk to him. honestly, the boy is not well liked, but i did put him to bed once while shit-faced...

anyway, s10 said that i "always make me feel welcome". cute. so he thinks i may be of benifit to Ben.

to be honest i just want to go home and sleep. four hours just is not enough, a girl needs her beauty sleep.

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 10:54 AM

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Thursday, February 03, 2005

I am steadily becomming more worried at the prospect of having to move from the student flat.

Basically, i thought i would once again be shacked up with J and A, however, B and C will also be there, along with lorraine.

i have no problems with these people, but altogether that makes five, and i know that if i go with them, that will be six people, and a six person flat is a little hard to find......

i have not as yet spoken about me moving with them. i was speaking in general, and J wishes that ahe could pick some people from different groups (including me hurrah!) and put them in her preferred flat.

doesnt quite work out though does it?

i know that they would be more than happy if i came with them. it just so happened the arrangement came when B and i were not exactly on 'speaking' terms.

may speak to nic about moving with her too though, going out with her on monday night. should be fun.

if not i can always go flat hunting and end up living with the randoms. i mean the girls im with now, i didn't know them when i moved here.

ah being so boring right now, trying to update the blog. you like?

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 7:49 PM

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Suburbia Sex Addict

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Suburbia Sex Addict

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 4:28 PM

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completely exhausted. no matter what i do it seems that the expensive electrical appliances will always get one over on me.

the phone that i bought for £100 which i had already replaced due to its persistant and severe bouts of p.m.s? well the new one is acting up too.

the new laptop has had the entire windows programme deleted from it now im quite sure. not only that, but it refused to play cds or dvd's right from the outset.

i am the typical woman when it comes to all things electric- give it to me, make sure it works, but do not expect me to even atempt to do any work on it because i will fail with astounding success and will do so so spectacularly that Jade Goody will begin to resemble a female Einstein.

set about doing my essay last night. was up untill 6.30am, slept for two hours, untill 8.30. still not much done. S10 will be sure to have a word with me. he was over last nigh, seeing how the work was going.

he is concerned about me, nothing seriour, just because i am the ultimate skiver and no matter what i always seem to get through.

sometime in the first semester, Andi from 10 came down to my door after a night out and we went to his flat. there were a few people there at the time, and after a few hours of topping up my already dangerously high alcohol level he walked me back to my door- and tried to kiss me.

the story i recieved: im really sorry/just took a break from my girlfriend/really like you/but if you dont see me like that it's alright.

the acctual story, uncovered last night: no he did have a girlfriend at the time, and oh yeah, the reason he wanted you to come up that night was because he wanted to fuck you. but don't tell him i told you.

why have i now become the ultimate attatched-man magnet?

G9? little girlfriend back home i had no idea about when i was up in her boyfriends bedroom at 4 am?

U called me last night quite late. it was a welcome distraction from the French Revolution.

he was, i would believe, rather horny.

i was telling him how my drawr full of condoms needs to be desperatley empited to save my sanity, and once again he was like:

"so if i was there, would you jump on me?"
no
"but why not?"
ive known you too long
"surley that would make it better?"
no, i dont see you like that
"believe me woman, i would go down on your pussy, and you would be akward at first, but after two minuites you would be holding my head down screaming at me for more"
any man can make a woman orgasm through her clit, it's the g-spot you all cant find
"can i find your g-spot for you?"
no
"your scared"
not
"i would take you in every position untill i found it and made you scream my name"
(laugh)
"so will you let me?"
no. but im so fuckin frustrated, i just want to grab someone and drag them to bed
"if i was there, would you drag me to bed?"
(laugh) no
"what would you do if i came up, ripped off your trousers, pinned you to the ground and started fucking you?"
silence
"you don't want me to, but still, you do want me to"
no i dont
"yes you do woman, i know you. so when are you going to suck my dick?"
dont be stupid
"why?im not. woman. i want you.always have and always will. its as simple as that"
so have you spoken to that girl who is into you?
"your trying to get rid of me because you know i want to tap your fine ass"
yeah ok
"im serious"
whatever
"would take you doggie style man"
(laugh)

and thats how the conversation went for the most part. im honestly not sure how long it has been, perhaps five months or so?
well, the itch most definatley needs to be scratched.

JB. not seen him at all. H9 apparently laughed when he was told, "she likes him?!"

do not forget, this is one of his closst friends. mabey its a male thing. they always seem to put each other down.

honestly was so bored last night. and tierd, so i did what i had been meaning to do for a long time. i waxed my top lip. the fresh pain kept me awake, along with the usual bout of sting that comes with it.

been meaning to find a time suitable to do it when no one would see me for a few hours. last night. perfect.

unfortunatley, there is work to be done. x

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 9:23 AM

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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

p.s if you are unable to read the entire post, click the 'refresh' button

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 7:45 PM

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the pierced fucktard has made himself known.
and i have not responded. do you blame me?

went to work, adn the comments were flying:

bouncers: oh my god, is she acctually walking in a straight line?! (snigger/giggles)

:can you remember me having tohold you up?

yeah at one point you were using me as a post to keep yourslef from falling

we were sitting on the couch and i STILL had to hold you up

the trauma of that night still continues. as for the boss and the dj. the boss appears to have no memory of his dirty little deed, and the dj went out of his way to say hello to me, to keep the peace between us im sure.

the weekends party was unfortunatley cancelled due to jills cunt boss forcing her to work despite the fact that she had requested the night off.

it has now been moved to this week, however i will not be attending as the January slump seems to be fading and we are getting rather busy once more.

instead of doing nothing this weekend, i met up with sev and ryan, and we were going to visit the strathclyde union. unfortunatley on arrival ryan was the first to hand over his i.d. to an eagle eyed bouncer who spotted quite rightly that it was infact fake, and was promptly confiscated, leaving him brokenhearted.

met with campbell later and decided a night at the pictures wouldn't be quite as boring as it sounded. or to tell the truth, because ryan was in a bitchy mood and he wanted to go.dont get me wrong,i had no objections to going, just his attitude was nasty.....

had a few drinks before sneaking some into the cinema.

team america. hillarious. highly recommend it. what with its scene of me on a drunken night and a late night puppet porno show that movie had everything you could ever want, however every one of the characters sounded like cartman from southpark-when his balls have finally dropped.

stayed overnight with sev. was nice that ryan wasnt there however. our history might have made it an unwelcoming situation...

we sat up untill about five or six. just talking about nothing much, laughing alot though, giggling about the holiday in spain, and talking about all the people we miss from there but who we havent been able to keep in touch with.

the only people who have stayed together from the holiday are myself, sev and ryan.

i left the next morning, and literally as you walk around the corner from his house U's shop is bang in fronmt of your face. i had no idea they were so close.

went stalking the streets for a taxi to relieve my feet of the stelletio pressure when his uncle approached us. to be honest i do not remember seeing him at all from the holiday, but he seemed to know me,finding it okay to ask the question "so are they still carrying you home then?"

ah, well,he must have gotten to know me rather well..

staff meeting was last night. fire drill. problems etc. and i later allowed myself to be coaxed out for a drink, and was not-so-heavily persuaded to indulge in some nicotine kindly offered to me.

since they were cleaning the pipes at work and so emptied out all the beer, and i had drank some mixed with lime to make it bearable, i was quite drunk when i got home. which was not to good for the already late essay i was due to pull and all nighter to complete last night.

collapsed in bed. woken later sometime in the night by a phone call from U.

said one day he will turn up at my house and get me "fucked on whatever intoxication im on"

i look forward to the event.

at work we were for one night only blessed with the presence of the hottest bouncer ever encountered. we seemed to meet up quite alot during the course of my shift, normally bold and not held back, i ditched my usual self, and cowered in the presence of the superior fine male specimen.

abi however, being the assistant manager, had her contacts, and without doing it herself,managed to use her feminine wiles to get his number and snare him for a drink without him even having a clue who she is. jealous? moi?
damn right.

how is it, that people can, by doing exactly the same thing, make you feel good one day, but make you cringe the next?

for example. going to the station:

"alright darlin' "
"gie us a smile"

*shudder* and quickly move on feeling my being has been violated

comming to uni this morning, a parked van erupted into whistles as i scurried past, head down wishing with all my dignity and self respect that the humilitaion would be over

on the train. the young and quite hot man selling food gives a low whistle and looks right at me. its not sleezy, but i smiled at him anyway.

sleezy would be when i was walking home, a speeding van passed me, and hanging out of the window was a man,who shouted back to me
"BLONDIE WHAT YE FONDE AE?"
i broke into a smile and giggled. sleezy yes, but mabey a girl needs a little sleaze in her life.

Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 9:39 AM

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