Friday, January 28, 2005
it has finally come to my attention that in the five months that i have been here i have completely and utterly rejected my body.
i feel ive shrank my liver so mush so it now resembles a dried out fish
im finding it as hard to breathe as trying to get chewingum out of my hair ive smoked so much
and i most definatley overindulged in the holiday season.
moi........is not best pleased
went to join the gym and stayed for a bit. it was sooo good being back there, however after twenty minuites i began to realise that it might be a little difficult getting back to my old regime of GYM GYM GYM, which has sadly become a non-existant factor in my life.
also vowed to avoid alcohol, which shocked J a little too much, and i began to regret it as saturdays party promises to be a truly spectacular and most memorable event. and i will be sober. in theroy.
personal trainers are no where to be seen in the uni gym, and so i booked an "assessment". basically a look at body fat etc.
was quite pleased that i had booked it, untill ten minuites of walking later, i revived the card from my bag to look at the details, and oh dear god..............
the instructor, is stephen.
sweating like a junkie in the chemist.
to start at the beginning....
a while ago, when i was still resident in glasgow, i was at the gym with anh. we decided after the workout to go swimming at the pool downstairs.
suddenly the most stunning boy appeared before us in quite a sexy uniform.
in the changing room, he cornered anh and asked if i was single and if he could have my number. i was, and it began.
we saw each other for a while, as he was due to move to edinburgh to attend university, even saw him once when he lived here for some unmentionable 'sessions' in his bedroom.
soon lost all contact.
untill my prom, wandering around in my stunning lilic dress, completley pissed though, who do i see after four months at the party getting off with the ugly (michael jackson look-a-like, and no, im not just saying that) school whore?
the one and only stephen.
i procceded to wander the party clearly upset, was stopped and forced to engage in therapudic 'whats wrong honey?' sessions with linzi, lindsay and kirsty.
while outside, his friend came over to speak to me. unfortunatley for him i was in no way interested and procceded to scream 'fuck off!' every time he began to try to console me.
he did nothing wrong however, was just cleaning up his friends mess.
that was the last time i saw my ex. that was the situation i left us in. i now am panicking that the former gym employee may have yet another job at the gym which i have joined.
and will be guiding me on my assessment.
fuck anyone?
of course there are lots of stephens and it's quite possible that im being paranoid.
however a few weeks ago, i had the feeling that this would happen.
moving on.........
the fucktard i pulled has not called or text thankfully
H9 knows amd i saw him yesterday, however we waved at each other across the street.
he was also with G9, which is another quite long story with he and myself....
sadly i am not the proud owner of a strong will. i really need much encouragement to keep myself going at the gym.
but pray for me people, that i am not a victim of deja vu?
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
colin murry. he was the dj last night. famous for presenting shows on radio1.
came out of the shower. A went in,showered and went into her room, to listen to colin of course.
suddenly heard banging on my door, opened it and A is standing there, much in the same condition as i, towel wraped around the head and towel covering our essentials.
she franticaly broke down and exitedly informed me that colin murry gave a shout out on the radio to
"A the glaswegian redhead" aka the exited girl in front of me at that point.
also discovered that night she had asked colin murry, who is due to marry in about one week i think, if she could be his mistress. he replied with a smile and a wink.
A also informed me that it is possible to hear it again on the radio 1 website.
thought that lttle piece of news was rather fun...
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okayyy...
went our with the ladies last night. was a good nite, well as good as it could be considering that i was determined that i would not get legless, but instead would enjoy a happy glow of semi drunkeness.......
some famous dj was there, all the girls were acting like retards around him and i distinctly remember there being a huge floating spaceman?
just realised how completley amazing all the girls are. were hardly known each other five months, but are such a close circle of friends now, especially B, who after the incident with G9and myself, was a little nasty towards me. not last night, she stroked my face in a very nice way at one point....
had some funny shots, like fiery shit,
also. dancing away, every thirty seconds i felt my ass being violated. talking to J later in the toilets, she informed me that there was a sort of queue behind me, and so she promptly whisked me to my safety.
never before in my life have i realised that men are such retards when drunk, or perhaps that was because i wasnt all that drunk. ended up pulling some guy mike, who yes he was hot, but couldn't kiss for shit.
he was also that kind of drunk where he seemed to forget everything he had said and repeated:
whats your name again? 2x
what uni are you at again? 5x
what you studying? 3x
you know i was at uni for three months......(long conversation ensues) 4x
you know, my dad used to work..... 5x
so where do you live again? 4x
was throughly exhausted.
he had one of those hard little toungues and rammed it down my throat and began to rotate it in a circular motion. then to my shock and horror discovered something in his mouth- a toungue piercing.
that really grossed me out.
he then went on to present his nipple piercing.....
tried to escape, however he had dragged me up to v.i.p. away from the masses-and my friends.
of course i knew they wouldnt leave me and called at the end of the night. i gave him my number and left.
god i hope he doesnt call....
to return to the matter of JB. not all that sure i should be trying with him, but now s10 knows, J and A know, and ive given s10 permission to tell H9, one of JB's good friends.
he is quite hot, but for some reason thats not what attracts me to him....something wierd. i just look at him, and start to get horny lol
or mabey im just sexually frustrated and need someone to take it out on.......
was talking to A about ther night we went out. and i completley forgot about the best chat up line we heard all night which simply MUST be mentioned:
"is your name gillette?......."
".......because your the best a man can get (cheesy grin from him)"
i do however remember giggling for at least 20 minuites over that.
before going out we procceded to lorraines rather fabulous party, and F and her boyfriend were there. i said hi, but couldnt keep the smile off my face, especially with J's re-inactment playing in my head......
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 11:21 AM
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
indeed it has been quite the most eventful week.......
friday morning campbell came to visit. as in usual fashion we got pissed,on vodka jelly and some very cheap whisky.
went upstairs to flat six to introduce campbell. the smell of weed was evident before i even opened the door.
lots of us went out that night, and guess what? the jumper i lost last week was thankfully recovered. the girls who were working last week were off, and so i found myself talking to them, with one of them apologising and saying that she should never have served me because i was so drunk....well.....
anyway, we had a REALLY great night at the gay bar, with me mesmerised by the fact that the dj was a DRAG QUEEN! i was sooooo in love with him that night.......
also had to rescue campbell from the prying eyes of a very dirty old man who seriously wanted to take him home.......
ended up pouring a bottle of water over a guy. he basically threw fruit pastels at us to get my attention, but in a drunken whirlwind i thought that he did it out of sheer bitchyness and procceded to march over there to start a fight. we sorted it however and i left......only to be greeted by him ten minuites later when he pulled up in a taxi:
he:(cuddle) hi
me:hey
he:(leaning in a bit too close) where are you going?
Me:home
he:oh, wheres home?
me:over that way somewhere
he:um, ok, well bye
gets in the taxi and drives off.
went back to the flat upstairs and seriously hit the giggles. the weed must have been very strong in that house.....
laughed as laura was locked out, but her flatmate was fucking andy in his room, and she couldnt go in
but oh my god!
the staff night.........spent loads of time with big jenny, more with her than with anyone else. we bought cigs and smoked cigars (what the fuck??!!) drank alot.
the highlights:
*comforting little jenny about her breakup with cav at new year, for absolute hours in the toilet
*being in the toilet when various girls took a slash
*organising a 'girls night' and having them all sign a piece of paper which is currently on the message board
*helping lauren as she threw up
*laughing at noel for being completley out his face
*looking at jennys pictures of a mouldy dog (yes REALLY)
*freaking out at the dj for calling me tidy and continually refusing to remove his hand from my ass
*freaking out because my soon-to-be-boss tried to kiss me
*freaking at 'the guy from work' about the whole thing
*being taken home by the guy and him having to zip up my jacket for me.........
*being bit on the arm
*apparently called U in tears about what happened with the dj and boss
*shouting at him because i couldnt hear due to a bad reception
*passing out while still on the phone to him
*making pasta and after deciding that i didn't want it, put it under my bed, still in the pot
didnt feel too bad though......
been up talking to s10, and ive decided that i do like his flatmateJB. like REALLY like him.......
s10 thinks that i have a fair chance. apparently he came home last night and threw up on his cd player......
f from next door. she has a nice boyfriend, seems all quiet and shy. however, sitting all nice in their flat, when suddenly erupting from the shower:
"uh-uh-uh-UH-MURRY!!!!!!"
ok dear, i know you like to have screaming orgasms from the top of your lungs but the flat was full of people. controll yourself woman!
i giggled about it all night......
so not looking forward to work though,
have a party tonight though followed by a trip to some club. perhaps JB will be there? i dont know, mabey ill get him drunk lol......
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 10:16 AM
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
just checkin something.........
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have always dreaded trips to visit hospitals. most of the people i go to see i do not know very well, or have nothing i can say to make them feel better.
such was the case this week when i visited my grandad in hospital.
As we were entering the ward, we saw an elderly man leave. thought nothing of it.
twenty minuites later however, it was discovered that he was infact, a patient. i watched with growing amusement as the reality of the situation became clear and one by one i watched the nurses faces drain and quickly become panic stricken.
from there they quickly organised themselves into teams, swiftly sweeping the hospital corridors for the geriatric escapee , all the while wiping their foreheads as sweat trickled down at the prospect of the word 'sue'.
A good fifteen minuites later, the man returned.
stressed and red faced, the nurses ran to greet him, or rather pull him into the office with post-haste for a strict 'word', all the while the little old man was innocently protesting
"i was only at the shops for a newspaper..........."
must have been the most amusing hospital trip ever experianced...
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 1:23 PM
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
okay, does anyone still read this?
of course i write for myself, but can't help if i become curious....
thursday night was awful,drunkest EVER, threw up, fell over LOTS, blocked my bank card, lost my friends and found myself lumbered with some fucktard for the evening, went into my work that night and a few days after was declared a "fucking riot" by my boss, passed out in the kitchen and later refused to go to bed as i was convinced the fucktard was still there, my body continued to try and throw up although there was nothing comming out, couldnt sleep my stomach hurt so bad, sang in the hallway all the way to my room, fell over in my bedroom, collapsed half dressed into bed, set off the fire alarm only to be rescued by plump balding firemen.
the next day at work everyone had something to say, including the bouncers.......
saturday night was a definate improvement.
went to the union intending to meet my friends there, i went along with A and her friends, later met my own friends who left as one party member resembled myself on thursday night.
joined A and her friends most of the night and the drinking games began with giddy exitement.
to be perfectly honest the drinking game is simple in construction, but extremely difficult as we drank more.
oh god, i found a pole on the dancefloor that id never noticed before. we then procceded to mount the pole like bitches in heat unleashed for the first time.
met some of the guys also. hung with them for a while. was chatting drunkenly away to one of them when his firend leaned over and whispered in my ear that he had a girlfriend.
wasted no time in whalloping him across the face, much to the amusement of his friend who later confessed to making it up.
also stood by as one guy took a slash in the bin for about a minuite and a half. the rest of the guys gathered around to protect him from prying eyes as if it were perfectly normal.
in amongst the crowd i found a guy who used to work at my work, but left and is now convinced they hate him.......
dancing away later in the night, i realised that i had wandered off again, but had one of the guys with me.we danced and he went in for the kill, which prompted me to sprint to the toilet for refuge.
unfortunatley for moi he wasn't going anywhere and followed me.
comming out of the toilet just as i was comming in was A, who was grabbed and dragged into the toilet by me, begging her not to leave me with whats-his-face.
she didnt for the rest of the night.
everyone left excet the two of us. we talked-alot.
you know, the drunk talk? mostly filled with "i love you!" and the like
(p.s. im not moving!!!!)
A was telling me how upset she was when i said i was leaving, and how happy she was now.
it had been decided at the end of the night that we would make more of an effort to go out together.
as usual the consumption of alcohol in my books is almost always balanced out with a cig in the other.
having none however, i had to borrow some, rewarding the givers with a kiss on the cheek. one such man was not satisfied and swiftly turned his head to catch me full on, much to the amusement of A and myself.
dancing away could feel someone behind me, didn't really try to see who it was, just turned smiled, and A and i staggered home.
spilled drink all over the couch and went upstairs to pester the guys for even more cigs
was a very fun night. the talks A and i had. thinkin i told her some a-bit-too-intimate details of my lovelife.
sunday night had arranged to meet with sev, but was so tierd i couldn't make it. campbell also called to say he was having a mini party and to come along.
so couldn't make it....
then david text-the ex. was dj ing at his friends party.
fuckrag kept asking if i could come up and see him. i told him i had other plans, which at this point i did and he resopnded:
"na forget it. u keep blowing me off.wen u lived here it wasnt a prob. now that your away, its wenever suits u"
what the fuck is he on about??!!
was so angry, i never arranged to meet him, i thought that when i moved that would be it, over with us to happily go our seperate ways.
just so angry that he just expects my time and loses the plot when i cant go........
okay, im calm.......
U is also being a problem. we sort of began to get nasty in our texts. but it was a playful sort of nasty.
he called later, and as we were talking it came out that i told him the only was he could ruin our friendship would be to tell me that he "loved " me in that way, but apart from that he couldnt do anything.
but later.....
"dont start me. just shut it and dont text me eva. or i'll destroy u and whatever friendship we hav left, if we hav any left"
was somewhat disturbed by this alarmingly vicious text. and i havent heard from him since. should i be worried? he's probably just playing with me like he always does.
ooooohhh! campbell has moved and is having a huge party this weekend. got to get off work tho....
want sev to come, feeling kinda bad i ditched him.
also got a call from ch. rare occurance these days. she wants to meet up, and shes been ill without knowing for ten months. kidney infection or something.
would want her to come this saturday, but she will probably bring her boyfriend, which would annoy campbell greatly, and news of her then-pregnancy has escaped.
not sure if she is or not.......
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 10:31 AM
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
finding a problem, in that im very 'late', and been feeling sickish of late.
don't think i can be pregnant, the last person i fucked was my ex in a park about 4 months ago. still can't help but think, there have been some nights where iv'e woken up-and can't remember exactly what happened the night before.
ivs decided (sort of) that i would be much happier in the halls than in a student flat.
broke the news to my flatmates. J and R reacted with quiet shock, J informing me that she didn't want to force me to stay if i didn't want to, but asked if i would be living with them next year.
A however exclaimed "what?! oh my god! you can't!!"
was quite touched by her i must say........
met s10 and adam from block 7 also, who both decided that they also did't want me to move.
why do i want to move? i think it's mostly because, my type of people are practically non-existent in our little residence.
i like to party, alot, and that has died out among the occupants of our block of flats.
should be drunk and disorderly tonight however, planning to go on an escapade with adam and co.
on a happier note........
J's boyfriend sent her a text, consisting of the phrases:
"i love you"
"your my soul mate"
"i don't want us to split up"
this all at two in the morning, exited screams from J,A and myself unfortunatley awoke the sleeping R.
her good nature however responded with a smile.
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 7:59 PM
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
so tierd
despite doing practically nothing all day
woke up, missed a lecture (fuck) almost missed a tutorial, but when i got there found out there forcing us to go to a museum today.
SO not in the mood........
on the upside,. the second semester students are here, and there were only two of us in the tutorial today, the rest either forgot, or most probably got lost.
there was me, and a really quite hot american guy. was sitting there thinking how nice it would be to just fuck him for a few months untill he left for america again, the no strings attached sex for a few months.
looking at him closley though, i thought he might well be a virgin.......
but then again, it would be fun to break in a virgin boy, or at least i think so, its good for you because you found yourself a part time fucking partner, and its good for his self esteem, let's face it, most 18 year old virgins are dying to lose it. would be doing him a favour.
there is some rather bad family news however........
my grandad (mothers side of the family) suffered yet another stroke.
this is quite possibly his sixth stroke, to be honest i've lost count. doctors think that he won't live past this one...
i spoke to him just before i left to go back to uni when he was healthy however, he seemed happier than usual.
my mum is not doing too well. shes an emotional person in general, and she's become very upset......
okay, not going to bore with the depressing family issues.
j and i were going to join the gym today. however i didn't return home after the tutorial and she wasn't home last time i knew, guess it will have to wait.
recieved a text from the guy from work. he was much more casual in his messages, however was prone to frequently asdking the question
"did you miss me?"
safe to say that did not recieve an answer.
Xx
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 1:20 PM
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
new colour.
been a while, no?
sent home early from work on friday night, acctually after only 45 mins.
was convinced to stay for drinks-again.
resulted in me becoming rather legless, again, but iv'e come into a problem. the guy from work, the one who always texts me, was being more hands-on than i would like.
happy that he was there hes a nice guy and all, but by the end of the night his hands had wandered to my rear end, and he was very flirty/cuddly with me.
on the way out one of the bouncers shouted 'just ask her out already!'
not really looking for that to happen, just not my type. he text me and asked me to go out and watch the football with him the following day,apart from the fact that i was still sleeping at noon having worked untill 5ish, i wouldn't have gone anyway, not to be nasty to him, but i dont want to give him the wrong idea.....
work the next day was full of those little comments about things you seem to have not noticed when you were drunk
"sooooooooooooooo, how about you and him.........."
was basically the topic of conversation all night.
one of the australian girls left. really quite upset, it was wierd how friendly we were getting, fast. i think im the only girl she acctually hugged when she left. strangley teary, was a bit of a downer, no one else was really affected though.....
staff night out and the drinking competition will commence at 7.30 on monday the 24th Jan.
speaking of, heard a funny story about S, my competitor. after i left the night we were drinking, he threw up- all over the bar top, and continued to throw up so much australian girl 1 grabbed him by the neck and tossed him into the toilet, where he landed perfectly head first into the toilet and stayed there for about an hour.
his girlfriend at work had to take him to her house and she slept on the sofa.........
was not amused for the next couple of days
so back in the flat. was visited by s10.
j came back with news..........she has taked a month 'break' from her two year boyfriend whos at Glasgow uni, and they will decide at the end of the month whether or not to get back together. mostly now she sits and battles with the phone, trying not to call him.
there is a guy upstairs she likes, a1, unfortunatley a1 has an extreme obsessive crush on a2, who also has a boyfriend at cambridge, although she has cheated on him several times with a1.
so far been to every lecture, see how long i can keep this up! last semester was a mess though, i didn't do anything, was so worried that theyd hold me back a year, to be honest i probably deserve to be, but i am going to work at this this semester.
been talking to ch. old drinking partner, one of my best friends, untill of course the fateful day that best friends secretly dread-she met her boyfriend. dont get me wrong, very happy for her, its just that he soon becomes the best friend. anyways, she used to get along good with his sister, but now shes moved back in with her mum, which is the last thing shed want to do, because his sister is acting like a bitch.
she hates the relationship ch has with her bfs mum, and the relationship she has with her boyfriend, not entirley sure what happened, but she text me:
"(she) got 2 jelous of our relationship,she wants to b the 1 gettin the cuddles n kisses.mad boot. was kewl until she became a junkie .still nice to my face btw.shez also jelous of me n her mums relationship.eud luv 2 fling her out the window. xx"
little nice bit of bitching.......
u called me again,. i don't know what the hell was up with him, he kept saying 'i wanna put my head between your legs...'
he was being that kind of nasty all night, as soon as we'd finished talking and i'd hung up, he'd call after five minuiteed and in amongst the 'norm,al' conversation, he kept saying it.
sent me a text that night saying, 'just really would like to (fuck) 1 time with you.'
the next day he did apologise though, i just don't know that was up with him, he has a girl who likes him, and they both don't want anyhting serious, but he doesn't want to for some reason, even though he keeps going on about how much he wants his dick sucked,preferably by me.
told himits never going to happen. but he likes to keep hope alive......
xx
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 10:09 AM
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Monday, January 03, 2005
happy new year!
although i was working the new year was certainly not lacking. arriving straight from the train station, i had no costume to dress in as we had previously decided to do so.
there was a nurse, two devils, and everyone else had dressed in 'nice' clothes. to my rescue however, came australian girl 1, who had a police womans outfit which she allowed me to borrow.
while i do enjoy dressing up and making an idiot of myself, the outfit brough much unwanted attention, especially from a man, who was infact a policeman, who insisted on stealing my hat several times, before grabbing me and procceding to swing me around the dancefloor like a squirrel on speed, and letting his hands embark on a wandering adventure all over, much to the disgust of myself and my manager, who had him promptly removed from the club by two 'friendly' bouncers.
i was on the recieving end of much protection from the bouncers that night, from one in particular, who insisted on having words with every man who did as much as look at me in the wrong sense.
to complete my outfit i found, while on the floor collecting glasses, a blue flashing light, somewhat resembling a siren, which i attatched to my policewomans hat, and was told it looked 'fuckin brilliant'.
for the bells, the staff were entitled to a half hour break, and a drink of choice. vodka of course was mine, but thrown in also, we drank a bottle of champagne, and the assistant manager but soon to be manager, climbed on top of the bar, presenting bottles of various schnapps and shots, holding them upside down for us to run under and try to drink.
patrick insisted on doing mine.
P: alright come on
me: ok, just don't get it in my eye
P: yeah i bet that's not the first time you've said that!
safe to say i couldn't consume any alcohol on the count of a fit of extreme giggles.
the champagne really went to my head, and i think i was tipsy on return to the bar.
and so officer 69 got home to an empty flat around 7amish.
had to work again the next day, but got off early as it was too quiet, was exhausted from working on new year and was prepared to go home when S said he, some others, and australian girl 2 were waiting behind for a while to have some drinks.
i did decide to stay, it was two for one cocktails for staff, and the assist manager presented us with some free shots. having no change of clothes, i had to cover my work badge, which i did with a sticker saying what else but my new nickname at work- 'dirty weegie'
S and i drank much, he declared that i was a 'shandy girl' which i discovered later to mean lightweight. i was very displeased at this accusation as i know full well that i can handle extensive amounts of alcohol, and i do think i remember placing a £20 bet, that i could outdrink him.
it will commence on the staff night out and the first person to throw up loses........
the dj also played a song for me, and announced it over his speaker, to my drunken delight, and to my embaressment, i hugged the dj, but have no idea what i said.
left work to go to another club, fully intoxicated. they required i.d, having none however, i procceded to inform them that i worked in a bar, ripped off my sticker, and thrust my badge forward.
they let me in, but i think it was more to do with the amusement they recieved from readink my 'dirty weegie' badge than anything else.
later, i remember leaving, but not getting home. have absolutley no idea how i got back, i just blanked the journey home.
next day with a pounding hangover residing in my head, heard the shrill of my home phone.
U. friend/old collegue of three years, calling to see if he could visit. had no problem with that. was akward around him at first, but slowly more comfortable. we talked for hours, literally about six, got restless and fought for a while, kicking, punching, screaming and laughing freely as there was no one else home.
later, lying down exhausted. he lent over. and tried to kiss me. i wasn't akward about it, just pushed him off, and gave him a look. i think he was slightly embaressed about it though.
he used to say to me, that i trust him too much around me. it's not the first time he has tried though, but it was years ago, and he said it really knocked his esteem. so why did he do it again?
despite that, it was extremely good to see him.
hit hyper active mode when i arrived home. went to bed around 1 ish, but couldn't sleep. my 13yr old sister and i, in the dark, jumped on the beds, screamed, laughed, stole from each other and generally acted like 3 year olds most of the night. it has been so long since i had been like that.
uni starts back very soon. will have to get used to living woith R,J andA again. were still practically strangers
so,hope everyone had a good new year, and didn't wake up in bed with someone they shouldn't have..................... x
Kissed By Tainted Angel: Tainted Angel at 3:05 PM
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